2019 has been the year of changes and now looking back I know for sure it was supposed to happen.
We all have our journey in life that makes us who we are. We are just like a rock that gets shaped by water or wind with our daily adventures, tears, laughs that keep that fire burning in our soul.
But what happens when you feel nothing? When there are no tears left to cry, things to make you smile and this immense nothingness takes over you?
I’ve had that in the last year and now I finally feel the freedom and the joy of being here, surrounded by all this beauty. I mean look at this view. This is where I am right now writing this blog post and this is my happy place.
Pain can only make us tougher and from pain and sorrow we get to appreciate the beauty that surrounds us. How cliche some might say…. Maybe but this does not make it less true.
We hold on to people or items even when they stop bringing us happiness. It is hard to let go, the fear of loneliness is there and the self esteem gets low. This is a process to overcome and I tell you, up the hill, the valley looks gorgeous. You just need to power through the climb.
There have been a lot of changes lately in my life which will get me ready for the new chapters awaiting for me to discover. Finishing a long relationship leaves you with scars which heal but in time. So that’s what I did: a bit of self discovering, self love, starting to focus on who I am, what I want to do and why?
Why do I want to share this with you? Because I believe I am not alone in this, because I know there are others just like me that think “why is this happening to me’ and that I need to let it out.
It’s ok to feel like that, it’s ok to take time off from anything that you do and just compose yourself and it’s ok to spend time with yourself or friends. We all juggle a life full of stress, putting this brave face, showing everyone we are strong and can do everything but the reality is that we have weak moments and it’s ok. Industry colleagues, brides, friends….we are all going through some tough moments in life and it will come that time when you are facing some important decisions. Life is too short to be stuck in the past. We all evolve and we need people around us that make us want more, be better and feel that we can do anything we want.
I was talking to an industry colleague today who happened to be in the same coffee shop and she was saying how this massive wedding she has planned has been the worst in terms of bride and groom interaction & experience with suppliers, how from the outside it looked like this glam, stunning wedding on a huge budget and how even though she had this negative experience, the learning she did from it was huge and she is so happy for it.
This story came at the right time as this happens in our day to day life. We look at people through our phone lenses and think that they have a great life but nobody knows the real struggle.
I am lucky to have great supportive people around me, here in Melbourne and back home in Europe. Yes, I still call Europe home.
What a year! Besides the emotional challenges, I did tick some great big boxes: new amazing job which I really like, great events in my portfolio, finished the Wedding Academy course… tick tick tick! Taking a step back, I see all the positive good things that have happened to me.
So there you have it: my absence from the events scene and why I needed so time off to focus.
Needless to say that I found my niche, the style that defines me, that challenges me and I cannot wait to share it with you.
So stay close as there are new projects and beautiful events to be planned for next year. I am full of energy, ready to embrace new opportunities.
2019 was the year of changes, 2020 is the year of growth!